-Do you need a leader? – You are strong enough!
-Do you need a preacher? – Decide for yourself!
-Do you need a master? – Just respect yourself!
-Do you need a hero? – Just accept yourself!
– Wolfs Moon, Brotherhood of Wolves
It may sound like the often used quote from the “Matrix” movie. But I’m sure many of you have also felt it your entire lives. Something that you perhaps had no words for. A feeling – something is wrong here. This can’t be IT. Maybe you’ve seen it as immorality and injustice and tried your best to even things out.
So it’s been with me. This brought me much trouble in school, in my family and so on.
After years of fighting – what chances do you have as child or teen? – I was weary and let things go. Felt dead inside, but – hey! – less trouble.
Wrong! Think again! The spiral went downwards on and on until I got into free fall and hit the ground. Could have ended my life there, instead an inner voice told me to start from scratch.
It began with: “No, I’m not mad! The world is! Although everyone tries to convince me of the opposite.” That was about four years ago.
I was drawn to a quiet place in nature where I found some rest and peace and decided to carry on.
One year later a potter opened his shop in my town. I’m interested in the Middle-Ages and so I went there to have a cup made. We had nice talks because he does medieval re-enactment and we became kinda friends.
Soon it turned out that he’s a shaman. “What the…?” He took away some of my negative energies and I felt much better. But he refused to teach me anything.
I was really impressed by him. And – in the review – he enjoyed it being admired. “Wow! Man, I’ll never do things like him!” – Now I know: Whether or not, it doesn’t matter! Everyone is an unique aspect of the whole.
He had a partner, a “white witch”, who gave me a book which included some spiritual info and a grounding exercise. That’s when my awakening really began. I got many new insights – “out of nowhere” – and noticed after few months that he’s not so extraordinary. After that, I went there only seldom. Then his business went very bad so he had to close the shop and moved away.
Since then I met several more or less interesting people: New-Apostolics, Jehovah’s Witnesses, witches, shamans, new agers… But they all had one thing in common: Subordination!
You can’t expect much from “sects” but those witches and new agers really gave me the creeps:
They talked of enlightenment, evolving and ascension. So far, so good. But then they told me we are not allowed to “manipulate” people. This includes talking about how one sees the universe or asking sleeping people questions that could disturb their sleep. That’s black magic.
If one is attacked on an energetic level (magic), he is not allowed to defend himself, dodge the attack or send the energies back to the the sender (which is actually the consequence – what we send is what we receive). That’s black magic.
The “dark forces” are allowed to do such things, they use black magic by “profession”. No rules for them. – WTF?
If one is attacked, there must be a divine reason that he doesn’t understand.
So he has to stand still and endure it… I’ve heard this BS before. Turn the other cheek and something like that.
We are not allowed to have an opinion on people, things or events. We are lesser (and dumb) beings. – If we don’t have an opinion we can not evolve because we only stand a the fork of the road, making no decision. We have to make decisions – if it was wrong… OK, go on, have another try.
We are not allowed to speak with a wink on spiritual topics or even have a joke with it. The higher beings could get angry. – Er, what? They are higher beings (of Love)! That shouldn’t even touch them. If they are my guides, they know what I think and how I mean it. My higher self doesn’t know what I mean??? Speak: I don’t know what I think or mean.
When I first got confronted with such “Enlightened Ones”, I asked myself: “Why did I break free when I should bow to new orders now? When they tell me those things – aren’t they manipulating me? So they do black magic…!”
Now I just ignore this BS if I recognize that people are not able to discuss such things. We don’t have to save the world to save the world.
As far as I understand it, there’s only one rule: Follow your heart, follow Love!
Love and Blessings!
[hat tip: Søren at Zen-Haven.com]